22 Weeks!

And this week, baby’s the size of a papaya!!!
He/she is almost 1lb. Wow! I’m feeling tonnes of kicks and punches this week that have been really cool. It’s a great reassurance that everything’s going well. I had my ultrasound and check on Wednesday & all is well. I had that funny-bunny tech & didn’t get a photo this time. She barely even tries or let’s me decide what’s good enough for me. But anyway I’m grateful every two weeks I get to see my little one! I gained 5lbs in a week which is abnormal. My blood pressure is normal so nothing concerning but my OB will keep track of it. I’ve gained 16lbs so far! Next appointment in two weeks we will be getting baby measured and start my Fundal Height measurements going. I still haven’t heard that baby’s heat beat and will be sure to ask at the next appointment. I have found this time around, the techs have been less keen on me seeing my baby or hearing it’s heart. It’s as if they’ve been trained a certain way to be difficult!
This week has been eventful in how I’ve been feeling with my pregnant body. My upper back has been killing me. By end of a day my back is really fatigued. My belly has been stretching out and uncomfortable. I’ve got constipation again that’s been difficult to deal with. I have four months left and hope I feel physically in better shape at some point. I also get this tearing groin feeling above my pubic bone when I go for a walk. I’m told to find a pregnancy belt to help keep my hips together so I’ll be on the lookout.
I am definitely finding this pregnancy tougher physically. I feel I need to be more active to be limber but I have physical limitations and restrictions. I still suffer from my anxieties about the health of this pregnancy and worry I will go into preterm labor. I’m very, very grateful to be pregnant. More than anything I wanted. But it’s been difficult to enjoy being pregnant. I wanted nothing more than to feel blissful and absorb every moment but instead I can’t wait for it to be over and done. I don’t seem to be alone in this. I have made TTC/IVF friends who suffered losses and felt the same. I am however very, very excited the day this baby’s in my arms. But more so, the day he/she is snuggles in it’s stroller, on our way home. Xo


21 Week Eggplant!

Today, our baby’s the size of an Eggplant! Or some would say Carrot or even Pomegranate.


  • Baby Weighs around 13ounces, 10.5″ in length (crown to heel)…explains why I feel him/her kicking so much now!
  • Baby’s almost as big as the placenta! This week, his/her digestive system is maturing
  • Baby’s very active this week! Karate champ in the making here!


This week has been uneventful in baby land. I feel him/her kicking around so much now. There are periods of the day that seem more active. Definitely after a meal, in the late mornings & late afternoon/evenings. It’s very reassuring to feel all these kicks, rolls & punches. I have my next OB/Cervical Measurement on Wednesday of next week. I can’t wait! I live for these two weeks. I went from TWW in TTC to TWW in OB appointments. I always worry that some thing may go wrong and I’ll go into early labor again. I get a stomach ache or cramp and think the worst. While I’m growing in optimism and going full steam ahead in baby preparations, I’m still cautiously optimistic.

I have a registry all made up & have been talking Shower planning with my BFF who will be hosting the party. We will have the shower on November 23rd so that my MIL will be in town for it. It’s still quite a ways away but I’m excited to start planning it & getting things together to make decorations and such. I planned my last shower and never made it. While some part of me is nervous for planning a shower, my optimism that this baby will come home and I have to keep on trucking!

Ps: I feel huge!


Until next time!



3 Years Gone…

I really wanted to write a post yesterday about our baby girl’s would-have-been 3rd birthday but I was really trying to hold it all together & get past the day. That’s how I am…I always put on a brave face and plow through the tough times. I’ve shed a thousand tears…probably more & every year, I feel the pain once again and every year I hope I never feel that pain again. So that’s my reason for pushing through. But an unfortunate thing happened yesterday. My husband’s maternal grandmother passed away. We knew she was dying and it would be a matter of days but I held onto high hopes that it would not be yesterday. I just didn’t want it to happen on the day of our little girls’ birthday. But it did. I had very mixed emotions about it and continue to. I am very sad for her loss & for everyone else’s loss and it tipped the scale for me & I totally broke down last night. But I also grieved for our one day of the year that was for us to remember our little that turned into some thing new. A day of death. I didn’t want her day of birth to also be a memory of someone’s death. And now a week in August is marked by the birth of a little girl who passed 5 days after she was born and the loss of an important family member. August has and is officially one I dread and wish I could sleep through.

We didn’t do anything particular this year to mark her birthday. Nothing seems right. First year we did the balloon release that lot of people do. It was cathartic but so sad. Since then, we haven’t done anything to specifically mark the occasion. I don’t want to do anything that will make my pain feel even worse than it is. Some times I feel bad for this…like we’re not doing anything to mark her special day. But she’s in my heart and I think of her always and I keep her memory alive. And that’s enough for me.


20 Weeks! Half way point!

This Week marks the half way point! Today, the baby is a size of a Banana!!!

SONY DSCThis week, baby has taste buds and is swallowing a few ounces of amniotic fluid every day!

Baby is approximately 10oz and 6.5 inches





This week has marked an important milestone to this pregnancy. I can’t believe I’m half way there! Baby’s more & more active as the week goes by.  If I catch the little one in an active spurt, I can even feel it on the outside! Next I hope my husband can catch these moments as well. We have decided to keep the gender a surprise…that was really hard to do at the anatomy scan. I wonder every day if it’s a boy? or a girl? I have always felt like it’d be a girl but I wondered at times if it were two deciding factors. One that I’m in favor of a little girl & two, my psychic reading said so. Now many people will probably scoff at this idea and call it stupid but she’s been right about everything else. She’s been right about timing of pregnancy, about the fact that there would be two but in the end only one. And that it would be a little girl…born perhaps a couple weeks early. I certainly hope the birth a few weeks early only means as much as 2 weeks early MAX but she mentioned 2 weeks, maybe up to 6 weeks early. Of course this makes me incredibly nervous to read even if it is mumbo jumbo because the last time our little bean was born early, she didn’t survive.

On that topic, this week coming up is going to be a hard one on us. Tuesday the 19th marks what would have been our little girl’s 3rd birthday….THREE! All I can think about is all the things we missed. How different our lives would have been if she lived. Sunday marks the day she lost her life but I have decided that wouldn’t be a significant day for me. I want to mark the happiest day and that’s the day she was born. I continue to miss her dearly. And since I’ve been pregnant, I’ve thought about her more. I feel like this pregnancy & baby is very different which I’m very happy about. I used to fear that I would feel like it was a continuation of our little girl and how hard that would be on me. How hard it would be to imagine that a new baby occupies the space which our little girl grew and was then born. But I’m happy to say none of those feelings are here. I really wanted to feel like this little person was not taking the place of our little angel. I find I think about one thing though – if our daughter survived, this little one would not exist. That’s a strange world to live in. We never would have had another child after our first born, and so I know that had our little girl survived, this little person would not have existed. And yet I’d trade in the world to have my little girl back.

20 week bump 2

Until next time!


Anatomy Scan, 19 Weeks & 5 Days

Today was my highly anticipated Anatomy Scan. Everything is perfect & baby’s healthy! Unfortunately the tech didn’t really give me much of a baby tour. I caught side glances of the monitor while she was doing her job. At the end she did show me the baby for all of 1 minute and I had to request a photo. Honestly, this hospital likes to be difficult ! We almost didn’t get a good enough profile photo for the doctor but turns out doctor is satisfied. I told them we don’t want to know the sex of the baby. I cannot tell you how hard it was to not know. But I was strong for my husband!

This first official appointment with my new OB solidified and satisfied my need to switch doctor’s. She is so incredibly kind and informative. She told me that I don’t need to be considering a Cerclage unless my cervix starts to shorten to a point of concern. She did say however that if by this point there is no indication of an issue, the will less likely be an issue. We could always put in an Emergency Cerclage later if needed. But all signs point to I won’t be needing it.

I will be going back in two weeks & will continue to see her & have my ultrasound every two weeks. Next appointment is on Wednesday, August 27th at 10am.

Nothing more to update on my end of things. Baby is very active these days which is really fun. My constipation is becoming more manageable although I had a major tear when I had a bowl movement two days ago – ouch! And so much blood. That wasn’t cool. I picked up a pack of Anusol suppositories to help heal & so far, so good. Now if I can just keep my bowl movements in good order!

Here is baby bean at 19 weeks & 5 days!

19 week

Until Friday!


19 Weeks!

This week…




0mangoBaby’s approximately the size of a Mango this week! 6.0″ in length and 8.5oz in weight.

  • Developing a protective coating over Baby’s skin, called vernix caseosa. It’s greasy and white and you may see some of it at birth.
    • Working on his/her five senses. Nerve cells for baby’s sense of taste,  hearing, sight and smell are developing in Baby’s brain.


Not much to report this week. Kicks and bumps are increasing and is daily. If timed well, I can feel his/her kick on the outside of my belly! My constipation for the time being is gone. Yah! We are heading back to Toronto today. 18 hour drive which I hope we drive in record time. Going to be an exhausting weekend. I’ll be likely updating Wednesday after our Anatomy ultrasound. Can’t wait to see baby!

Until next time, Banana!



18 Weeks!

This week..

sweet-potatoes-2Baby’s approximate size this week is a Sweet Potato!           Baby is approximately 5.6″ in length and weighs 6.7oz

Baby’s very active this week. He/she is now  yawning, hiccuping, rolling, twisting, kicking, punching, sucking and swallowing. This week, I started to feel some regular kicks and punches.

This week I’ve started to feel kicks, sporadically. This is really exciting and a bit more reassuring that things are going well.
My constipation has been absolutely horrible. I became very desperate so I phoned Motherrisk and they said I could try Colace which is a stool softener. It’s not safe to use a laxative. It’s said to take up to 3 days and as much as 5 to start working. Well it’s been moving things along slowly but surely but still not great. However better than before. Been up North and it’s been really nice. The bugs have been horrible though. Lots of black flies and Mosquitos. It’s too bad because it’s made being outside difficult. And with this summers weather, it’s not been the warmest either. I’m just hoping the winter will be more mild this year.

Until next time, Mango!



17 Weeks!

My baby’s the size of a Navel Orange today! This is my last week in my 4th month of pregnancy and in 3 weeks, I’ll be half way baked! Not much to report this week. I’ve been having a terrible time with bloating & constipation this week. It’s been a daily struggle. I had a very bad episode last night of painful gas bubbles. It was just horrible. I will be stepping out today to get some laxatives. Prunes, increase in water and fiber haven’t been working for me. I wanted laxatives to be my last resort but I don’t know what else to do! I want to find some relief at least for today and tomorrow but careful not to use laxatives on our road trip for Sunday….that would be a bad plan!

I am fairly certain I’ve figured out that I’ve been feeling Braxton Hicks for the past few weeks. I googled my symptoms & asked a friend & she said it’s BH…I’ll be sure to mention this to my OB when I return from vacation. Pretty much every day, my belly gets very hard & feels like there’s an inflated balloon pushing out. It’s very similar to the sensation when baby turns over or pushes a bum out later on in pregnancy. There are times I think I feel the baby but not sure if it’s the gas. I have been having lots of gas along with my Constipation so it’s still hard to discern.

navel orangeBaby’s approximately 5.1″ in length & 5.9 ounces. Skeleton is hardening and fat is accumulating around it. The umbilical cord is getting thicker and stronger, and those little fingers and toes are finally have finger prints! I could start feeling the baby move any time now & he/she could also start hiccuping but I won’t feel that for a long time to come.


Until next week, Sweet Potato!






And I have a new OB…..

Since the day I met my OB, Dr. N – I wasn’t impressed. I felt conversations were a bit awkward & there were some misunderstandings. But I chalked it up to my own nervousness. I was there for him for a very important reason….Selective Reduction. I figured it would be no big deal to keep on as his patient and so I asked him if he would take me on. And he did. The second appointment was that of the procedure & he was kind, patient and sensitive, given what I was going through. But there was still an uneasiness. Yesterday was my follow up & another ultrasound and he was way off his game. And the awkwardness & misunderstanding was still there. In fact, he had very little to say, was forgetful and I just had enough. He can’t tell me why I’m feeling pain on/off under my uterus and didn’t even offer any possible reasons. Just looked at me like he didn’t know what to say. When I asked him if it could be growing pains he agreed with me. I mean really, who’s the doctor here?!

Anyway, I decided to ask to switch to the lovely Dr. H who I saw twice in Dr. N’s absence & she’s WONDERFUL. I really, really liked her. So I asked if I could switch and my wish was granted. Unfortunately (for me) she is pregnant & will be off work some time in November which means I’ll have to see Dr. N again – at the end of my pregnancy & possibly for delivery. *sigh*…..but it could be worse. I’m excited to start with Dr. H and can’t wait to see her next time on Wednesday, August 13th. I have my Anatomy Scan that morning at 8am & then I see Dr. H at 9:15am! I look forward to this greeting again. She’s very warm, nice, cheery and willing to give lots & lots of information.

I won’t have too much going on for the next few weeks. I am going to Northern Ontario for two weeks starting this Sunday. But I do have my usual weekly gestational updates that I’ll be posting. Maybe not timely, but weekly.

Until Friday! XO

Week 16! Bump Pic

This week has been relatively uneventful except for my previous update on my SR follow up appointment. I will see my OB one more time on Monday & then my family & I will be traveling up to Northern Ontario On July 27th for 2 weeks! I plan to keep my blog up dated at least weekly.

17 weeks will mark the end of Month 4! And then I’ll be going into my 5th month…I can’t believe it! I have near 3 months left of work until my early leave & I am looking forward for some time off to myself!

This week, my baby is the size of an Avocado!Avocado

New developments for baby this week are:

Facial Muscles allow baby to make faces
He/She can hear my voice!
He/She is breathing on its own
His/Her eyes are starting to work and can see light


I have been feeling what is similar to when milk lets down in my breast. Some burning sensations. After some reading this is the week that breast start to enlarge and milk ducts are starting to develop.                                                                                                                                                       Nausea continues to dissipate to almost non-existent ( yay!) although I will stay on Diclectin until my nausea is gone for at least 2 week strait. And then I will consider weaning off them.

Bloating/constipation is ever present and have started eating prunes.

Energy levels are rising and am no longer falling asleep at 8:30pm!

Frequent urination at night is starting to become a thing of the past. I do however get sensations of sharp pain in my bladder if my bladder is very full. I did have my OB take a urine sample yesterday to make sure it’s not bacteria…waiting on the phone call for those results. Fingers crossed it’s not an infection!

 I get to start Prometrium again today…again…Two suppositories per day. I am going to take it until around 36 weeks. Some studies have shown it can help prevent going into early labor. Just adding another “just incase” preventative.

Until next time…xo